My Shift in Mind, by Andy

I came to Spain in November 2012 on an invitation to help start a Living Miracles Community in Spain. At that time I was depressed, deep in a “dark night of the soul.” I thought that this project could provide the miracle that would snap me out of it. But unworthiness and despair thoughts continued to run through my mind while I was in Spain, like long heavy trains. I only managed to get off those trains a few times.

I had an intuitive hunch that the community should be in the Malaga area and this manifested with an invitation from Alice Friend to come to Alozaina. It seemed I was carried there by three mighty companions: Trisha, Monique and Peter. While talking in a café we learned about a house and came to see it. It was just right, but I was feeling too low to celebrate it. Soon after I returned to Utah and remained stuck in victim thinking for months.

In April, feeling desperate, I finally started praying with desire and consistency to the Holy Spirit to help me change my mind. The opportunity came up to drive David and Frances to the airport and I exposed to them how desperate I felt, stuck in the wrong mind. Clearly Spirit put us together at this moment, because Frances spoke up brightly to tell me she had had a clear prompt to have me join her in Spain in June. We both lit up. Spirit had us joining in a miracle. I was overjoyed!

Frances spoke about it during this 5 minute part of a Spreaker talk with David:

Go to Spain

Listen to David’s whole talk on guidance.

When I came into the house in Alozaina in June, however, I took my wrong-minded thinking with me. But this time I was fully dedicated to change my mind. So I watched my thoughts and exposed them along with my upsets in expression sessions. I had many one-on-one sessions with Frances in which I felt seen as not merely OK, but as perfect and Whole. In a little over a week I dropped the beliefs that I was unworthy and a victim. I started to really enjoy just being alive in the present moment. And the community members became witnesses to my joy. Halleluiah! I love them. In the evening we just like to hang out with each other, often in silence. It just feels so good.

Even my perception shifted as these photos show:

Pool as seen in November 2012

Pool as seen in June 2013

I’d like to close with this song, Heaven Is My Home, by my friend Soham Om:

To hear the whole album click here.